…And We Have Liftoff…

So, today my latest novel, The Sacrificed, is finally available at Amazon and other fine digital establishments. It’s been many years since my last book (How the World Ends, Book Three), which is due to me taking my time in actually trying to find a publisher for this book, as opposed to it taking a long time to write. I essentially finished The Sacrificed almost three years ago, and since then I’ve finished a somewhat-revised draft of another manuscript, as well as started (and then gave up upon) yet another story. Currently right now I’m pondering ideas for another new story, but I’ll see how far it gets.

Long story short–The Sacrificed feels both old and new to me. But I’m glad it’s finally released and that a publisher is willing to take it on. This is all new to me–having a publisher release something instead of doing by myself on Amazon–and it’s both pleasant and a little disconcerting. I’m used to everything being in my hands. Now it’s not. 

As always, if you read the book, please write a review on Amazon for the book. It really does help.

Well, writing reviews and people actually buying it. Buying the book also helps.

January 23, 2024

Remember when the year 2024 sounded so futuristic? Well, at least I do. Hell, The Running Man movie was set in 2019. At least our society isn’t quite such a dystopia.

Anyhow, on January 23, 2024, The Sacrificed will be released through Liminal Books, an imprint of Between the Lines Publishing. Until then, I can offer interested readers a free review copy of the novel in pdf, ePub or mobi files if you’re interested in writing a short review for the novel on Goodreads (which can be done in advance of the release) or on Amazon (which can only be done as of January 23rd, 2024).

If you’re interested, simply email me at rudykerkhoven@yahoo.com and I’ll probably get back to you as long as my spam filter doesn’t think that you’re some nefarious type tying to cause problems.

Page One

So, I should start using this blog a lot more. Because, dear readers, as you all know well, people love reading blogs in the year 2023. It’s all people talk about these days.

In the coming days or weeks, I’ll offer advance readers a pdf of my upcoming novel, The Sacrificed, to be released by Between the Lines Publishing early in 2024. In the meantime, here’s the first page. A whole page! For free! You all of you readers clamouring to read this blog.

Willow River Press

So, yesterday I signed a publishing agreement with Willow River Press (an imprint of Between the Lines Publishing), which is in the Minnesota area. It’s a small, independent publisher who are willing and (I think?) eager to publish The Sacrificed, a novel I finished revising well over a year ago. This will be my first foray in the the publishing world outside of self-publishing on Amazon and other similar sites.

It’s a surreal and largely anti-climactic moment one signs a contract. Especially when “signing” consists of applying a digital signature to a pdf file and then clicking “submit.” It feels as definitive as sending an email.

I’m very appreciative of the people at BLP who are up to the task of cleaning up and assisting in marketing a novel of mine. Just some guy with a germanic name who lives in Canada. Chances are they will never even meet me in person. I might be an AI generated program, for all they know.

I’ll update things here when I know what’s coming next. But for the time being, I’m glad that I decided to let The Sacrificed rest on my hard drive instead of rushing to publish it through Amazon myself. If nothing else, it’s something different. And I’m ready to try something different.

Like the Aged too Old to Stay Young

Early in 2021, I wanted to give myself a break of revising The Sacrificed, figuring that there was no need to rush things with it. I want to try writing a novel that was shorter, less structured, more informal. I had an idea of a tangential plot structure–every section follows on a tangent from the previous one without the need for any semblance of a linear time structure. I wanted to complete a draft of a manuscript without all the core pieces already planned out. The working title is Like the Aged Too Old to Stay Young. I started the draft in March, and I finished the draft today.

I have no idea if this story is even readable. It might very well be a complete mess. It’s been the focus of my writing for these last six months, and now it’s time to put it on hold. Let it take a vacation while I return to The Sacrificed. The last time I wrote a novel with so little planned in advance, it was 1998. It was the first novel I ever wrote, the manuscript of which I’ve long lost. Maybe by the new year, I’ll finally be done with The Sacrificed and can come back to look at this experiment.

Anyhow, here is the first paragraph of this unwieldy-titled draft. Usually, the first paragraphs of my drafts don’t end up being the first paragraphs of my completed manuscripts. But. Hell. Why not just post it here.

In the end, my entire life will take place in between the space of two memories.  It will not matter my age, my condition, my emotions.  Before my consciousness wanes and cognition whimpers, I’ll skip from one thought to just one more.  Time may unfold before us in a linear path but the trail we leave behind is tangled and jumbled, knotted, frayed and darned.  We take the orderly events of time that have yet to occur and scatter them in a right fucking mess in the instant of our present.  That’s what we do.  We take the order and sense out from reality and make a Pollock, call it a life.

The Most Boring Show Ever Made (updated!)

I will keep the original post below, but it turns out that it’s… well… wrong. After contacting Renana Raz, her performance is actually based on a book called The Most Boring Book in the World by Nana Ariel. The Jerusalem Post article in the post below has listed my book as the inspiration. I guess the journalist didn’t quite do their homework for the article.

Anyhow, still sounds like an interesting (or boring) performance. And who would have thought that there is now another book with such a very similar title (although it appears to be a completely different take on the idea).

So, this is different.

A woman in Israel has “adapted” The Most Boring Book Ever Written into a performance piece. It ran for two days earlier in August in Tel Aviv. Only found out about it when a Google Alert was sent to my inbox about this. Crazy. How ironic–a book intended to be boring inspired someone to create art–that is also boring.

I hope to have a chance to see a recording of this.

https://www.jpost.com/israel-news/culture/the-most-boring-show-in-the-world-a-non-boring-dance-show-hits-israel-675845

The Sacrificed

I finished the draft for The Sacrificed just over a year ago. Since then, it’s been revised, restructured, revised and revised some more. I don’t want to rush this. I don’t see the point in haste.

So, here is the start. The first couple of pages. Maybe I will release it in the coming months. Maybe not for another year or two. I don’t know. It’s been a long time since I felt so comfortable letting something sit and wait. I guess I’m getting old.

Pri sat against a wall of rock and clay, the room a narrow rectangle, wooden joists and floorboards above exposed.  If she stood tall, her head would hit the ceiling.  If she stretched out her legs, her toes could reach the opposite wall.  She could see nothing aside from a dull point of light, too meagre a source to illuminate any details.  Her bare feet pressed against the dirt floor, moist from a trickling stream that dribbled down the opposite wall.  Her right ankle and wrist still throbbed; she massaged her arm while leaving one leg outstretched.  Hasan’s words were still clear in her memory, his voice assured, steady, blinding her with a flashlight mere inches from her face.  If she yelled, he would cut her throat.  If she tried to run, he would cut her throat.  She called for Jaz with a whisper and the next moment the cool pinch of a metal blade pressed against her neck.  At the time there was no deliberating the possibility that this might have been a butter knife.  A piece of scrap metal.  At the time, she did what he said.  He then pushed her, told her to walk, reminded her to stay silent while keeping a tight grip around her arm.  She was barefoot, without her coat or belongings, and remembered climbing slick steps, the frigid rain falling into her hair and shoulders as if she’d been forced into a cold shower.  She did not want to whimper; she did not want Hasan to view her as meek.  She recalled a perverse emotional numbness—her heart raced, her hands quivered, but she walked, she breathed, listening for other footsteps.  This is happening, she thought to herself, not daring to say a word out loud.  This is happening.  It felt like they walked for more than twenty minutes through the Jungle, her toes stubbing uneven rocks in the roads, her heels pressing onto plastic wrappers, cables.  Wafts of sewage drifted through the lingering, acrid exhaust from generators. Hasan didn’t speak and his grip never relented.  He directed her with jostling tugs and she figured that he expected her to shriek.  But somehow it was easy to remain calm, or at least remain quiet.  He then told her to take a step and thrust her thorough a doorway.  She felt plywood beneath her feet, then a rug or carpet.  He let go of her arm and told her she was going to fall.  Her wrist struck the opening as she tumbled, her ankle twisting upon impact.  He then closed the door above her and locked it shut.  She struggled to untie the blindfold—the knots multiple, tight and wet.  And when she removed it, she was here, in the dark, in the mud, alone.

Since then, there had been no contact with anyone.  There were footsteps above, muffled voices of men, but the trap door remained shut.  All she had were the clothes on her body, still wet from her forced march through the rain, and a single blanket that she wrapped around her shoulders and thighs, the material synthetic and coarse, stinking of smoke.  She assumed that someone would come down to speak with her, demand a ransom, something.  Hasan kidnapped Pri in the middle of the night and now appeared content to let her remain indefinitely.  Her bottle of Stasi was still in her bag.  Hasan must have taken her belongings.  The medication had no value to anyone else.  As soon as she had a chance, she would plead for her bag, or just her medication.

Pri stood, keeping her weight on one leg, hunched over and running her fingers along the underside of the floorboards, sheets of plywood, a few small squares, mostly long rectangles.  She felt the grain of the wood, some with splinters like baby hairs against her skin, others flush, perhaps coated in paint.  The corner of one floorboard was soft, the wood rotten, she could scrape away fibers with her fingernails.  Four joists spanned the length of the ceiling, each a different thickness.  Even when hunched over, she had to mind these beams to avoid scraping her forehead.  She felt the square seam of the trap door, the tips of nails clustered in pairs to secure the hinges on the other side.  She brushed her fingers along the perimeter of the ceiling, where floorboards rested atop dirt, dry to the touch except for a section through which rainwater dribbled, the surrounding wall moist.  A hole no wider than her index finger let through a muted circle of daylight.  She could pry apart the dirt around it, pebbles clattering to the ground, rainwater clinging down into her armpit.

Someone entered the structure above, footsteps thumping along the floorboards.  At least two people walked, both shuffling steps, ambling, perhaps pacing.  Pri tried to follow their locations, her hands up against the ceiling, felt it sink into her fingertips as someone plodded above.  She couldn’t hear any voices.  One set then strode towards the trap door and Pri scuttled back against one corner, expecting it to open, pulling the blanket up around her folded knees. 

The footsteps ceased.  She had no reason to remain in the corner, but she had no reason to stand up.  She kept the blanket around her, watched the dot of light across the room, and then closed her eyes.

10 Years!

Whatley1(4)It’s been 10 years, to the day, since The Adventures of Whatley Tupper was published as a Kindle ebook.  So, I figured I might as well make the kindle version free for a few days here at Amazon*.

Years ago, I had plans to revisit the book in some manner, but now I feel too busy working on a new novel to divide my time with something else.

*Actually, I screwed up and couldn’t make it free until tomorrow (the 23rd).  It will be free for 5 days.  Download early.  Download often. Continue reading